future

listening to right now- Parisian Dream: Laura Veirs

Sometimes you know that things are floating, changing, and that you will have to adapt to survive.  I have spent the last 2 years living in and working in 5 different cities.  I signed up for that.  I planned to throw my immediate future into, what I would consider, chaos. All that was with the plan of coming home when done.  Back to family and friends that I have had and will have for my entire life.

I am not heading home.  I am not going to the familiarity that I thought I so desired. And I can honestly say, through gut-wrenching disappointment... I am relieved.

I will miss my friends and family immensely, more than they will know. But for the sake of my own sanity and to alter the outcome of this life for the better, it is what I need.

The song is a Pandora discovery. I think that it is a perfect sound for my current state of mind. Slightly odd timing, subdued clashing of the strings and guitar.  Just a little chaos that makes something altogether elegant and perhaps remorseful.